Monthly Archives: April 2004

Sunday, April 4, 2004

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1:30pm — In a couple hours, Sara and I will be the owners of a new townhouse together in Eden Prairie. It’s gorgeous. It extremely close to my work and to Wooddale and to the Prairie Center mall. We had been looking around for a few weeks and finally settled on this new development out there. I found a really good, really nice realtor named Sherwin Teradash; he’s an older guy, but really, really sharp and goes out of his way to help out. Just a sweetheart of a guy.

The other night, Sara and I went out to talk about this problem she has with Jon. (Actually, it’s my relationship with him that’s more the problem. I don’t know that anything was resolved other than what I FEEL is the real issue — which is her feeling second-rate. I acknowledged that and apologized for that, but, I continued to drink and shouldn’t have. She ended up having to drive my car home while I became a drunken baffoon. I vowed not to take another sip until our wedding. I was so disgusted with myself the following morning. Especially if we’re considering having a family intervention for my mom. I’m just afraid my own behavior might draw unwanted [attention].

Thursday, April 1, 2004

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8:55pm — I forgot to mention yesterday that I’ve been back in touch with Dawn Adams. She sent me a little Christmas card and I responded, and then she called. I learned a lot more about Ryan’s accident [her son who I used to help babysit when he was very young. Dawn is a single mother]. Apparently, his neck and chest were pretty torn up. It happened back in August of last year. I’m a bit amazed that he’s doing as well as he is. But, he did miss his first semester of school and is apparently very depressed.

“Are you sure we didn’t come from two different worlds? Are the things that are important and interesting to me important and interesting to and vice versa? Let me add another category: fun.

“God, help me not to be so selfish, here. Help me to have the right, mature, and loving attitude I should” The BIG issue is reassurance — She needs to be reassured that SHE is first in my life. I’m just not sure how to do that. I guess being more physical and intimate is key. I have been communicating that enough to her.