8:55pm — I forgot to mention yesterday that I’ve been back in touch with Dawn Adams. She sent me a little Christmas card and I responded, and then she called. I learned a lot more about Ryan’s accident [her son who I used to help babysit when he was very young. Dawn is a single mother]. Apparently, his neck and chest were pretty torn up. It happened back in August of last year. I’m a bit amazed that he’s doing as well as he is. But, he did miss his first semester of school and is apparently very depressed.

“Are you sure we didn’t come from two different worlds? Are the things that are important and interesting to me important and interesting to and vice versa? Let me add another category: fun.

“God, help me not to be so selfish, here. Help me to have the right, mature, and loving attitude I should” The BIG issue is reassurance — She needs to be reassured that SHE is first in my life. I’m just not sure how to do that. I guess being more physical and intimate is key. I have been communicating that enough to her.