9:20am – I had coffee Brian Davis on Friday morning. I learned quite a bit actually about my job title and grade level. Apparently, I have a lot more autonomy and independence than I thought. It certainly doesn’t feel like I’m getting that
I guess I’m just going to start acting as if I DO have more autonomy. I’m just going to SUBMIT my BRD instead of asking for anyone’s opinion of it.
8:07am — Well, I was able to pull some strings and get us moved into the townhouse a few days early. So instead of having to wait until the 19th, we can now close on the 10th. We’ll just have to borrow some money from Sara’s equity line.
We did a little furniture shopping yesterday — found some really nice stuff we both liked. We also ran into my boss, Trent and his wife. He even gave me a little side hug — which shocked me a bit.
I talked to my mom (actually, Sara’s mom first), and found out that my dad’s been having a lot of trouble. His health is just getting worse. He’s been complaining of chest pains and going into the emergency room a couple times – but they insist he’s fine. But, my mom believes his arteries are all clogged up again and that at any moment he might have another heart attack. To make things worse, 10,000 times worse, he doesn’t have insurance.
I’m going to check with my company to see if there’s anything they can do. It’s gotta be the most ironic thing in the world. I work for the largest health insurance company in the country, and dad doesn’t have any.
9:33pm — So, I realize I forgot to mention yesterday, that there is another more important aspect to consider, not only do you need to consider the fact that you are just a person in your manager’s game of chess, HE’S a pawn in YOUR game. In the case of this guy, Nick, I took myself out — he originally thought I was just a pawn but I gradually . . .
12:27(am-Sat) — We (our team) have been in this Visual Studio.net class all week. I have personally found it very interesting and have gotten a lot out of it. Gaylee, on the other hand, is of the opinion that it has just been a total waste of time, that we are ALL not advanced enough. But, I think I was tracking along fairly well, and I WAS the only from our entire team who consistently asked intelligent questions and maintained intelligent dialogue with the instructor. Again, instead of acknowledging the fact that I’m shining, she’s diminishing the whole thing because of her own insecurities and inadequacies.
I’m meeting with Jon in the morning. I think he finally has realized that I have some wisdom in terms of making life-decisions. However, there are definitely some stark differences between us. I know that I definitely tend to think more strategically, whereas he’s more concerned about saving face in the short run. Whenever I’m faced with some kind of conflict or confrontation, I do NOT immediately try to think of ways I can appear strong or save face. I first evaluate my circumstances, consider my options, and make your move based on that. When your boss is the only one who could make or break you, then HE is god! You should make sure you do everything in your power to make HIM happy, not matter HOW much you hate him; no matter how much you don’t respect him; no matter how much you don’t respect the company.