9:49am — I often think about how I want to be remembered when I’m gone. I was just reading a devotional by Dr. Robert Jeffress. Alfred Nobel, who actually invented dynamite, did not want to be remembered for that reason, but for more virtuous reasons, hence, the Nobel prizes.

I still have a huge part of my life to go. Despite all my regrets and mistakes, I can make sure that I continue to do the next right thing. Like Jeff Bezos, who pretends he’s 80 years old looking back on the choices he’s facing now, which ones would the older self want him to make now?

I realized last night how lazy I think I’ve become, both physically and intellectually. The amount of effort I used to put into things in order to achieve a desired result is not there lately.

I am mostly motivated by my son. He works hard at everything he does. In many ways, I see myself in him. His mother is resistant to allow me to have much influence in his life as I would like.

Lord, I just want to be in Your will. Greg Laurie says the way you can know if you’re in God’s will is if you are being obedient. There can be no hidden sin or rebellion. I condemn the sin of laziness in my life!